- Only about a month left to the End Of SIP!! I hope everything go well now, I don't want to screw anything up. May god bless me.
I seriously think SIP is shit. Alright, maybe just for me, maybe just for those with me as well. They say you will be a different person after internship, I say we'll be living a different life. This lump of shit changes my life, totally. I used to think that whatever happens, I still have them with me. It's not like it's their fault, I'm blaming the situation. Now, whatever rubbish I faced, I swallowed. There's no one to turn to, no one to cry to. I miss the many many phone calls, for hours and hours when to pour everything to each other. Not forgetting the conference calls we had. I miss the times, we sat down and talk about everything under the sun. I miss the times we strolled along the beach, watched movies tgt and our own concert sessions.
The only way to stop missing the old times, is to forget. Forget the uncountable fond memories we shared, the fun we had. Forget that we sat by the beach, talked about our problems and even though we can't solve them, we still had each other. Forget that we watched horror movies, scaring the wits out of each other and grabbing each other's hands for comfort.
Alright, maybe I'm abit exaggerating. But there are times when I thought nothing is the same anymore. I hope you can stop making me upset, I hope there's no more quarrels, I hope everyone can be more sensitive to others' feelings. I hope all the evil people I meet will all go away. All the people who upsets me just get out of my sight, out of my life. I hope we can understand how each other feels. I hope that this is all a dream. I know I sound like a childish kid but I really want to stay as a kid, I don't want to grow up- just let me grow old, and die. I hope for a fairy tale life and I want to be rapunzel. I want her hair.
I ought to sleep now (2.37am) and wake up at 5am for my morning shift! Maybe it will be a brand new day, maybe I will really wake up from this dream.
I'm still waiting for an apology. Maybe that's all I ask for.