Public Apology to Rina.
Sorry that i ps-ed you.
I bot u a YanYan le..
*****
i wana go for extreme makeover!!
haha.
Liposuction, chin implant!
:)
*****
I forgot to make tis annoucment,
15th Sept in my BIG day!
the removal of my braces!!
HUrrAy!
*****
*i'm an evil girl.
Sorry that i ps-ed you.
I bot u a YanYan le..
*****
i wana go for extreme makeover!!
haha.
Liposuction, chin implant!
:)
*****
I forgot to make tis annoucment,
15th Sept in my BIG day!
the removal of my braces!!
HUrrAy!
*****
*i'm an evil girl.
and she say GOODBYE..{/1:03 AM}
I got sun-burnt @ Fort Siloso.
What a Joke!
What a Joke!
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:17 AM}
I'm so depressed again.
BUT,
over deployment @ Fort Siloso.
AGAIn.
I noe, but i just cant stop niaming.
Totally spoilt my mood for the entire week!
it's like hours away now.
BLESS me?
I duno why i just hate it that much.
Phobia i guess.
It's so darn boring!
Stand under the sun, sweat,
fake millions of smiles,
act nice.
Totally not what i like.
Moreover?
U get to be dumped at somewhere all alone.
And it last a whole day!
9am to approx 7pm.
Free labour.
How "FUN"!
More niaming.
can i skip Sunday too?
i dun feel like going to work either.
Im like psycho-ing myself every time b4 i start work.
"working is fun x 10"
SAVE ME FROM HELL!
Happie 19th Birthday SIS!
BUT,
over deployment @ Fort Siloso.
AGAIn.
I noe, but i just cant stop niaming.
Totally spoilt my mood for the entire week!
it's like hours away now.
BLESS me?
I duno why i just hate it that much.
Phobia i guess.
It's so darn boring!
Stand under the sun, sweat,
fake millions of smiles,
act nice.
Totally not what i like.
Moreover?
U get to be dumped at somewhere all alone.
And it last a whole day!
9am to approx 7pm.
Free labour.
How "FUN"!
More niaming.
can i skip Sunday too?
i dun feel like going to work either.
Im like psycho-ing myself every time b4 i start work.
"working is fun x 10"
SAVE ME FROM HELL!
Happie 19th Birthday SIS!
and she say GOODBYE..{/1:06 AM}
FYI:
i seriously hate weekends now.
That 2 days is making me so depressed.
Making me cry again.
I can't help it but to feel so lonely.
Come to think of it now,
I really dun haf much frens.
Well,
What lala said is true,
I need to make more frens and not to stick with my usual group of frens.
I did not heed her advice.
I'm regretting now.
Everybody is moving out of my social circle.
Nobody is free for me.
Styms i just wonder,
am i really such a bad fren?
But i really dun tink so.
I think that styms i spare far too much thots for you guys,
but none appreciates that.
How many times have you guys not spare a thot for me?
How many times did you guys know that i'm mad?
How many times did you guys realise that i've compromised?
How many times did you guys actually notice that despite how tired or busy i am, i tried so hard to spare time for you guys?
I'm not pinpointing at anyone.
It's just everything that i've bottled up for so long.
It had reached its brim.
You can now be mad at me,
for all that i care.
I will now not put in the effort to pull
that string of friendship.
Drift as far as you want.
For i know im born to be a loner.
I dun make a good fren nor good gf nor a good daughter.
Aint even a good sister.
I tried so hard to achieve sth in life.
But for this 18yrs,
tell me what had i achieve?
Im not gonna try anymore.
I'm just counting the days,
when i can say goodbye to my world.
Nobody wants to pick my call now.
Not even my mum.
This is my FUCKED up world.
my fucking life.
Im gonna roam ard this bloody world right now.
i seriously hate weekends now.
That 2 days is making me so depressed.
Making me cry again.
I can't help it but to feel so lonely.
Come to think of it now,
I really dun haf much frens.
Well,
What lala said is true,
I need to make more frens and not to stick with my usual group of frens.
I did not heed her advice.
I'm regretting now.
Everybody is moving out of my social circle.
Nobody is free for me.
Styms i just wonder,
am i really such a bad fren?
But i really dun tink so.
I think that styms i spare far too much thots for you guys,
but none appreciates that.
How many times have you guys not spare a thot for me?
How many times did you guys know that i'm mad?
How many times did you guys realise that i've compromised?
How many times did you guys actually notice that despite how tired or busy i am, i tried so hard to spare time for you guys?
I'm not pinpointing at anyone.
It's just everything that i've bottled up for so long.
It had reached its brim.
You can now be mad at me,
for all that i care.
I will now not put in the effort to pull
that string of friendship.
Drift as far as you want.
For i know im born to be a loner.
I dun make a good fren nor good gf nor a good daughter.
Aint even a good sister.
I tried so hard to achieve sth in life.
But for this 18yrs,
tell me what had i achieve?
Im not gonna try anymore.
I'm just counting the days,
when i can say goodbye to my world.
Nobody wants to pick my call now.
Not even my mum.
This is my FUCKED up world.
my fucking life.
Im gonna roam ard this bloody world right now.
and she say GOODBYE..{/3:04 PM}
What are memories for?
Are they meant for us to remember?
or
Are they meant to be forgotten?
Was looking at the pictures taken years back to recently.
I miss those times, badly.
Are they meant for us to remember?
or
Are they meant to be forgotten?
Was looking at the pictures taken years back to recently.
I miss those times, badly.
Most recent pic on lin's bdae, 04/08/05
Sem1 clzmates, TB047 rawks!
Zhixin and wei's bdae celebration at Aranda, 04/05/04
Sentosa trip, donkey years ago.
Dun you just miss our SKYCO? Year 2003
4e5 chalet, 28/12/03
Radon outing to Sentosa!
I miss AMY! Come out wherever you are!
Amy's bdae chalet, 25/03/05.
Sentosa trip to celebrate siew's bdae, 01/04/05
New Year Celebration @ lala's house, Year 2005
SKY bbq gathering @ Punggol Park, 08/08/04
My bdae celebration, 08/07/05
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:44 AM}
Tell me,
to put up with a false front?
My definition:
True self
- do u prefer to show ur true self
to put up with a false front?
My definition:
True self
- No make up, not even the slightest.
- No contacts.
- Dress well, in ur own context.
- Show your attitude.
- Show exactly how you feel at the point of time.
- Speak your mind. Directly, no rephrasing.
False front
- Conscious of your appearance.
- Try to be on your best.
- Smile even when you dun feel like it.
- Hide your attitude.
- Try to be nice.
- Being tactful.
2. What is your choice?
For me,
I would prefer to put up with that false front.
The 'ME' which most of you get to see, is FAKE!
wahaha.
well, im not really that bad.
BUT, i make the effort to be nice.
I dun tell you mean things about you right at ur face.
Styms, I do behind your back.
styms, I just forget abt it.
When I really want to say sth bad about you?
I try very hard to be tactful.
I rephrase my words so as not to hurt people.
When I have evil thots,
I keep it to myself.
I dun actually do em'
I just think of em'.
Yes,
I do put on make up.
But just alil,
to conceal my flaws.
my dark rings that was born with me.
and well, i dun slp early.
Nobody is flawless.
I,
take that as basic courtesy.
It is courtesy, to be at your best appearance.
You are not the one looking at yourself most of the time.
Others are.
I dont see anything wrong with that.
Is there?
I am tired of trying to be nice.
Nice in personality,
acceptable in the way I appear.
I'm sick of smiling when I dun feel like to.
Acting alright when I'm upset.
Wearing those bloody contacts when I'm so tired to even open my eyes.
( I do not mind wearing my spects, i just thot i look so spastic in both specs and braces)
Have the decency to wake up early to dab those concealer under my eyes.
Well, i guess im not the only one who's like that.
I'm sick of pretence.
3. Which is the ME you wana see?
Note:
I'm not really that evil lah.
and i believe,
everyone does speak behind others back.
I wun be surprise to know if anyone is backstabbing me.
This is life.
This is humane.
Do you agree with me?
Above, are only my personal opinion.
For me,
I would prefer to put up with that false front.
The 'ME' which most of you get to see, is FAKE!
wahaha.
well, im not really that bad.
BUT, i make the effort to be nice.
I dun tell you mean things about you right at ur face.
Styms, I do behind your back.
styms, I just forget abt it.
When I really want to say sth bad about you?
I try very hard to be tactful.
I rephrase my words so as not to hurt people.
When I have evil thots,
I keep it to myself.
I dun actually do em'
I just think of em'.
Yes,
I do put on make up.
But just alil,
to conceal my flaws.
my dark rings that was born with me.
and well, i dun slp early.
Nobody is flawless.
I,
take that as basic courtesy.
It is courtesy, to be at your best appearance.
You are not the one looking at yourself most of the time.
Others are.
I dont see anything wrong with that.
Is there?
I am tired of trying to be nice.
Nice in personality,
acceptable in the way I appear.
I'm sick of smiling when I dun feel like to.
Acting alright when I'm upset.
Wearing those bloody contacts when I'm so tired to even open my eyes.
( I do not mind wearing my spects, i just thot i look so spastic in both specs and braces)
Have the decency to wake up early to dab those concealer under my eyes.
Well, i guess im not the only one who's like that.
I'm sick of pretence.
3. Which is the ME you wana see?
Note:
I'm not really that evil lah.
and i believe,
everyone does speak behind others back.
I wun be surprise to know if anyone is backstabbing me.
This is life.
This is humane.
Do you agree with me?
Above, are only my personal opinion.
and she say GOODBYE..{/1:07 AM}
People mocking session again.
the usual 3 of us.
we wanted to visit Tomi initially,
but to our disappointment!
Mos was packed
and lala was too hungry to wait.
*FYI: Tomi is the 1st wonder of CP.
So,
we went to the MAC which i hate!
but well,
that irksome manager is not there.
*phew*
we thot we wudden have our mocking session today.
WE WERE SO DAMN WRONG!
We discovered JUDY!
I thot she was a GUY!
I still commented that she look like Jonathan lor.
(for those frm TAS, u should noe hu's Jonathan)
*FYI again: THAT is 2nd wonder of CP.
Looking out for 5 more wonders!
to be updated soon, I Hope.
Oh ok,
be patient!
BACK to judy.
She rocks man.
We crowned her the #1 diligent crew of MAC internationally!
Her routine:
1st, she was mop the floor.
2nd, wipe the tables.
next, clear the tables.
Lastly, wipe the tables again.
What's so weird abt her?
Oh nth much,
she just repeat the whole routine in a spilt second.
and again..
and again..
non- stop!
She walks like the road runner.
ANd so she practically run around the store.
okay,
i suck at describing situations.
For more info,
contact either of us
or visit lala's blog tmr.
Coming soon:
our very own tour package to the 7wonders of CP.
Registration starts now.
the usual 3 of us.
we wanted to visit Tomi initially,
but to our disappointment!
Mos was packed
and lala was too hungry to wait.
*FYI: Tomi is the 1st wonder of CP.
So,
we went to the MAC which i hate!
but well,
that irksome manager is not there.
*phew*
we thot we wudden have our mocking session today.
WE WERE SO DAMN WRONG!
We discovered JUDY!
I thot she was a GUY!
I still commented that she look like Jonathan lor.
(for those frm TAS, u should noe hu's Jonathan)
*FYI again: THAT is 2nd wonder of CP.
Looking out for 5 more wonders!
to be updated soon, I Hope.
Oh ok,
be patient!
BACK to judy.
She rocks man.
We crowned her the #1 diligent crew of MAC internationally!
Her routine:
1st, she was mop the floor.
2nd, wipe the tables.
next, clear the tables.
Lastly, wipe the tables again.
What's so weird abt her?
Oh nth much,
she just repeat the whole routine in a spilt second.
and again..
and again..
non- stop!
She walks like the road runner.
ANd so she practically run around the store.
okay,
i suck at describing situations.
For more info,
contact either of us
or visit lala's blog tmr.
Coming soon:
our very own tour package to the 7wonders of CP.
Registration starts now.
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:32 AM}
My first day at work todaY!
i noe,
like so long after i announce that i've gt a job.
haha.
well,
not bad but
not really fun too.
i was separated from rina!
haha.
it was ok though.
my legs hurt like hell!
can chop off not?
kinda looking forward to work tmr!!
yeahs
i see money!
Happie belated birthday carol!
i noe,
like so long after i announce that i've gt a job.
haha.
well,
not bad but
not really fun too.
i was separated from rina!
haha.
it was ok though.
my legs hurt like hell!
can chop off not?
kinda looking forward to work tmr!!
yeahs
i see money!
Happie belated birthday carol!
and she say GOODBYE..{/1:01 AM}
im so bored can?
isnt it obvious?
im blogging like so often recently.
nobody reads anw.
it's the weekend that everybody had been yearning for.
but well,
other than i get to slp more,
like u noe, i slept for 16hrs ydae.
i'd rather go to school.
but then again,
not exactly.
if that's the case,
i wun be getting that much of mc this sem.
dun get me wrong.
i was realli sick.
but as for this coming fri,
im gonna fake it.
isnt it obvious?
im blogging like so often recently.
nobody reads anw.
it's the weekend that everybody had been yearning for.
but well,
other than i get to slp more,
like u noe, i slept for 16hrs ydae.
i'd rather go to school.
but then again,
not exactly.
if that's the case,
i wun be getting that much of mc this sem.
dun get me wrong.
i was realli sick.
but as for this coming fri,
im gonna fake it.
oh im sorry to lie.
depolyment realli stinks.
esp at fort.
i wun mind if im at any other attraction.
BUT fort.
dun add on to my boring life la.
even my mum ask mi not to go.
but she wun sponsor for my mc.
hahaa..
ok, so it's sunday.
i just cant wait to go out today!
but hmm,
im just waiting for my hp to ring.
YAH! im that desperate.
i even ask my sis to call my fone to make sure that it's working.
anw,
my sis' out to catch the firework.
HIP huh.
depolyment realli stinks.
esp at fort.
i wun mind if im at any other attraction.
BUT fort.
dun add on to my boring life la.
even my mum ask mi not to go.
but she wun sponsor for my mc.
hahaa..
ok, so it's sunday.
i just cant wait to go out today!
but hmm,
im just waiting for my hp to ring.
YAH! im that desperate.
i even ask my sis to call my fone to make sure that it's working.
anw,
my sis' out to catch the firework.
HIP huh.
dun ask mi to
get some entertainment k?
i noe i nid those.
but on the other hand,
i nid money too.
im so broke.
i haven catch a movie for donkey years
that i dun even wish to count.
im just stucked at home with my dog.
and my lappie.
before i forget,
im supposed to prepare for those bloody interviews.
wondering why cant i jus take the initiative to ask someone out?
haha.
save the effort girl.
POINTLESS.
not much ppl to call anw.
rmb?
my social circle is shrinking.
&
ppl are jus too busy for me.
i think everybody had got enuff of me.
y wud anybody wana be fren with mi?
im so boring, evil and mean.
but if u nid trouble,
i welcome u with open arms,
im the #1 troublemaker that ever exist.
but if u're here to gimme trouble,
GET LOST ok?
i have more that i can handle.
Oops.
i forgot that im suppose to fly on my own.
but i cant even tink of whr to go.
any suggestions?
my life's a chore.
so tough to carry on.
im sorry rina.
that u gotta see me like 6days in a week.
and she say GOODBYE..{/6:40 PM}
This is bad.
Real bad.
i need a life.
seriously.
i need more friends.
haha.
yeap.
enlarge my social circle..
it's getting smaller..
how funny.
hmmm..
anw,
deployment was not fun at all.
FORT SILOSO.
ewe!
even their staff are quiting real soon.
wat can i say?
im gonna get a MC for next week.
no matter wat.
i swear!
Things are getting for bad to worse.
way beyond my control!
Real bad.
i need a life.
seriously.
i need more friends.
haha.
yeap.
enlarge my social circle..
it's getting smaller..
how funny.
hmmm..
anw,
deployment was not fun at all.
FORT SILOSO.
ewe!
even their staff are quiting real soon.
wat can i say?
im gonna get a MC for next week.
no matter wat.
i swear!
Things are getting for bad to worse.
way beyond my control!
and she say GOODBYE..{/11:50 PM}
NO
LIFE
LIFE
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:06 AM}
I still feel like puking.
Cus im sick.
n
partly cus u suck.
Why on earth will someone like tis exist.
oh no!
so many eeky ppl exist on earth.
they are all guys.
so basically,
guys are yucky.
GET LOST!
Cus im sick.
n
partly cus u suck.
Why on earth will someone like tis exist.
oh no!
so many eeky ppl exist on earth.
they are all guys.
so basically,
guys are yucky.
GET LOST!
and she say GOODBYE..{/1:57 AM}
The doc stinks.
i went to the sk polyclinic as i din wana spend so much on doc in mth.
i totally regret it!
that bloody doc was so sacarstic.
and
he refused to give mi a mc.
he accused me for cheating mc.
ewe.
harlow?
i was having a fever last nite and i vomited.
"oh that was ydae. y did u cum now?
what do u wan mi to do?
i cant issue u a mc since u cum so late."
oh i din noe that i nid to go b4 certain hours to get a mc.
i took my own temp.
it was hmm 37+
n im stil sweating and aching.
damn that doc.
totally spoilt my MOOD.
anw.
Happy National Day!
i went to the sk polyclinic as i din wana spend so much on doc in mth.
i totally regret it!
that bloody doc was so sacarstic.
and
he refused to give mi a mc.
he accused me for cheating mc.
ewe.
harlow?
i was having a fever last nite and i vomited.
"oh that was ydae. y did u cum now?
what do u wan mi to do?
i cant issue u a mc since u cum so late."
oh i din noe that i nid to go b4 certain hours to get a mc.
i took my own temp.
it was hmm 37+
n im stil sweating and aching.
damn that doc.
totally spoilt my MOOD.
anw.
Happy National Day!
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:24 AM}
im ill again.
twice in a month.
how lovely!
fever 38.3 degree when it was last measured.
i puked.
YUCKS. i noe.
i hate it too.
all e curry chicken rice
and that means i din eat anything todae.
im nt hungry.
surprising!
im aching.. im cold and im warm..!
hmmm..
im veri worried for deployment at FORT SILOSO.
Esp during the lunar 7th month.
Bless mi Guan Yin.
national say is coming..
"let us celebrate tis moment"
rmb how skss choir sang this?
i miss it man!
oh yah.
lala n i concluded that 3women= market is true.
we were much quieter todae w/o rina.
twice in a month.
how lovely!
fever 38.3 degree when it was last measured.
i puked.
YUCKS. i noe.
i hate it too.
all e curry chicken rice
and that means i din eat anything todae.
im nt hungry.
surprising!
im aching.. im cold and im warm..!
hmmm..
im veri worried for deployment at FORT SILOSO.
Esp during the lunar 7th month.
Bless mi Guan Yin.
national say is coming..
"let us celebrate tis moment"
rmb how skss choir sang this?
i miss it man!
oh yah.
lala n i concluded that 3women= market is true.
we were much quieter todae w/o rina.
awwww..
and she say GOODBYE..{/1:23 AM}
oh im independent.
i went travelling ard singapore alone.
taking trains here n there,
i prefer the bus though.
it's not really that pathetic to go out alone.
walk along the streets,
and u may notice that most of the ppl do hang alone.
human dun realli need companion.
we all have to learn to be independent.
i dun expect my frens to always hang ard with me.
nobody is that free to acc mi all the time.
it's time i fly alone.
being alone is not loneliness.
it's peace at mind.
i went travelling ard singapore alone.
taking trains here n there,
i prefer the bus though.
it's not really that pathetic to go out alone.
walk along the streets,
and u may notice that most of the ppl do hang alone.
human dun realli need companion.
we all have to learn to be independent.
i dun expect my frens to always hang ard with me.
nobody is that free to acc mi all the time.
it's time i fly alone.
being alone is not loneliness.
it's peace at mind.
and she say GOODBYE..{/5:04 PM}
BYEBYE to CRS proposal
&
SERVICE PROMOTIONAL PLAN.
Good riddance!
*****
i just love hanging out with lala and rina.
our laughters were LOUD.
we went ppl mocking again.
TOMI mocking i mean.
WE just love tomi!
Not forgetting that sweet lil girl we met.
LOVELY.
:)
THANKS lala for the 'treat'
&
ps-ing me.
&
SERVICE PROMOTIONAL PLAN.
Good riddance!
*****
i just love hanging out with lala and rina.
our laughters were LOUD.
we went ppl mocking again.
TOMI mocking i mean.
WE just love tomi!
Not forgetting that sweet lil girl we met.
LOVELY.
:)
THANKS lala for the 'treat'
&
ps-ing me.
and she say GOODBYE..{/1:10 AM}
I dun understand why such disgusting freaks ever exist.
FU** off.
GET LOST!
my world doesnt welcome you.
*****
It's 12am!
Happie 19th birthdae lin!
FU** off.
GET LOST!
my world doesnt welcome you.
*****
It's 12am!
Happie 19th birthdae lin!
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:00 AM}
Nobody colour my world.
*****
projects stink like hell.
two submission on fri.
excuse me?
none are done yet.
we're doomed i should say.
why isnt anyone worried abt the service proj?
its due on fri.
and its onli like at most 10% done.
its onli lynette n my work till now.
HELP!
anw, shant let tis affects me.
im gonna get over and done with it.
real soon.
i can smell holidays.
:)
im so broke.
in debt right now.
save me from poverty!
*******
Paint my world.
my life.
*****
projects stink like hell.
two submission on fri.
excuse me?
none are done yet.
we're doomed i should say.
why isnt anyone worried abt the service proj?
its due on fri.
and its onli like at most 10% done.
its onli lynette n my work till now.
HELP!
anw, shant let tis affects me.
im gonna get over and done with it.
real soon.
i can smell holidays.
:)
im so broke.
in debt right now.
save me from poverty!
*******
Paint my world.
my life.
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:33 AM}
Don't make empty promises.
and she say GOODBYE..{/12:50 AM}