Donkey and eeyore years since we last had our friday night. Our last dinner at Roti Prata House. That was the happiest moment of life, as far as I can remember. I'm suffering from amnesia or maybe I'm senile or even selective memory. We had fun and I will miss you guys. I felt as though the lights went off, spot light on us. Everything and everyone freezed, except us. I laughed heartily, ate happily, grinning gleefully, forgetting all my problems at that point in time. It's just great to see everyone after a long day of training. Damn, if not for my training tmr, I wished we would have stayed longer.

You guys may not know, but I'm grateful that even when you all don't know my sorrows, when you all don't have any solutions, it's good enough to hang out just like that. You all are like estacy to me.

Not all fairytales have beautiful ending. Not everyone lived happily ever after. Happy moments are always short lived. Sometimes, forgettable. Vice versa for troubles, sorrows and pain. But we all just gotta make the best outta the worst situation.

I hate to admit this again. But I need help. I think I need doctors or maybe even gods.

I don't know when but I know it's coming. I'm gonna burst into pieces, just like a balloon.