Parents are getting weird these days. Sometimes I just hope that I can be one of their brain cells to know how they think.
When you hang out with guys, they start to worry that you might be taken advantage of.
When you hang out with girls, they start to worry that you might be a lesbian.
When you don't dress up, they worry that you might look too ugly that you scare the guys away.
When you dress up too well, they worry that guys might feel inferior next to you, and so you scare the guys away too.

So what if I lost interest in guys? So what if I'm interested in girls? So what if I'm not interested in any of them?

I'm tired of all the shits in my life. I know I'm not the unluckiest beings on Earth, but still I can only be considered lucky because I'm still alive and kicking physically. I'm just too tired to care who's talking about what, backstabbing about me and even giving me names. It's so tiring to mind so much stuff. Aren't any of you tired as well?

Sometimes I don't need anyone to understand how I feel, or even what I'm thinking about. But it would be kind enough to just leave me alone. If I cant gain you support, you can help yourself and me, by just staying neutral. Sometimes I try as far as possible not to blame anyone for anything. I try to see things positively. I try to take my failures as learning experience. I do reflect, I do try to make myself happier, I do not push blames around. But it is all to no avail. I'm not feeling any happier by swallowing all the blames, by making others happy.