It's been so long since the last time I got depressed. Many thoughts have been going on my mind recently. I'm back to my depression mode. They miss me so much you see.

Maybe it's all the schoolwork that I just can't wait to shake them off but yet I'm not doing anything about them.
Maybe it's the new class that I still can't adapt to. Everyone seemed like an individualist. Perhaps I should learn to be one too.
Maybe it's about waking up at 7am almost every morning but sleeping at 4am that got me in sucha a bad mood.
Maybe it's all the pre-SIP stuffs that got me so stressed and fed up. Cant the school just dump me anywhere? I seriously wun care.

I feel so out of place in this world, this society. Everyone seem so blissful, so loved. Leading a good life, rich and getting everything they want. For me, it's just all the opposite. Everyone seemed so vulnerable but yet they always have someone to rely on. I'd rather be the weak and vulnerable one.

It's not that I need someone to rely on but I'm just tired of being the wall. I need a break at times. I need to rest, to put down my armour and shield.

Anyway, I have a newly discovered phobia growing. Phobia of the males. I don't know why. I guess it's all the past experiences that I had accumulated, the stories I've heard.

Poseidon is nice.