I'm feeling old. I don't want to grow up and it is not as though I had sucha happy childhood or anything. I wasn't a happy child but at least I don't have anything to worry or to grieve on.

I yearned so much to grow up when I was like in the primary school. Growing up means gaining freedom, I can go anywhere I want and not just to tag along with my parents. I can earn money so that I can buy anything that I want. I can make my own decision and not my parents making the decision which I do not agree to. THAT WAS THE PAST.

Now that I'm old enough to go out on my own, to earn money and to think. All these seems like responsibilities to me now, responsibilities that I do not wish to bear. I can't rely on my parents to feed me or to solve any of my problems. I have to do it all on my own, I have to be independent. That sounds so much like a "mission impossible" right now.

I can't imagine that I may have to lead a working life in the future, worrying about making money to make ends meet. I can't imagine that there are millions of issues that I have to face as an adult. I can't imagine myself as an adult.

I don't want to grow up. I am forever 18 alright?

PS: People! I want to catch a movie! Let's watch Yours, Mine and Ours!