FYI:
i seriously hate weekends now.
That 2 days is making me so depressed.
Making me cry again.

I can't help it but to feel so lonely.
Come to think of it now,
I really dun haf much frens.

Well,
What lala said is true,
I need to make more frens and not to stick with my usual group of frens.
I did not heed her advice.
I'm regretting now.

Everybody is moving out of my social circle.
Nobody is free for me.

Styms i just wonder,
am i really such a bad fren?

But i really dun tink so.
I think that styms i spare far too much thots for you guys,
but none appreciates that.

How many times have you guys not spare a thot for me?
How many times did you guys know that i'm mad?
How many times did you guys realise that i've compromised?
How many times did you guys actually notice that despite how tired or busy i am, i tried so hard to spare time for you guys?

I'm not pinpointing at anyone.
It's just everything that i've bottled up for so long.
It had reached its brim.

You can now be mad at me,
for all that i care.

I will now not put in the effort to pull
that string of friendship.
Drift as far as you want.
For i know im born to be a loner.

I dun make a good fren nor good gf nor a good daughter.
Aint even a good sister.

I tried so hard to achieve sth in life.
But for this 18yrs,
tell me what had i achieve?
Im not gonna try anymore.
I'm just counting the days,
when i can say goodbye to my world.

Nobody wants to pick my call now.
Not even my mum.

This is my FUCKED up world.
my fucking life.

Im gonna roam ard this bloody world right now.