I spent so long and after much consideration and hesitation, I finally decided on something, something that I wanted to do so much at that point in time. But it failed me. There just wasn't any chance. Twice. I gave up and I'm sorry. Let's all wait for the next time that I will have the urge and impulse to do something of the impossible.

Maybe it's fated. Haha. Maybe it's trying to tell me to reconsider, for the consequences that I may have to bear.
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Flaws. I guess everyone has them. But are we suppose to live with them? Or rather to change them? It's very weird when you noticed that in someone so dear to you. Should I tell you to change? Would you want me to tell you? Or it is my fault? Maybe I'm the only person who think that that is a flaw. A problem. Something that I dislike. I should not pin-point mistakes. Stop behaving like a bitch, Jing. Argh! I want to scream.